He came with a perfect kiss worth remembering.

I don’t remember feeling like this in years. I’m just extremely happy that at times, I’m trying to find faults within this happiness.

Everything seems too unreal, it’s too different from what I had in the past. Sometimes I would search for this feeling within the time I’ve been breathing but nothing could compare to this feelings, right now.

It’s not like I’m one of those that will be singing all the time nor that I would dance with animals but its close enough to a kind of happiness that would make me dance even in my sleep.

This feeling is just so good that I can’t even look below his past, I cant even be bothered with how many girls have he dated, who have he loved.  I don’t even care if he wouldn’t even want to marry me or we may be separated in the future. Because what we have right now is just already too much to ask for.

This is the state of happiness, I’m just too happy with the present and I have never felt anything like this.

Even the kisses were amazing. Not even a second I was left out, not even in a slight awkwardness. I  can’t even describe how amazing those kisses into words.

Everything was too magical.

Yeah, you're right.

We KISSED.

On our so-called first date.

Let me just started with we got rated by cops that night when we were chilling inside the car at the open parking space with lights are everywhere. We were told to get married in a tone of ‘cash could save your asses’.

I was a little stubborn earlier, still feeling not at fault since we weren't even doing anything but the so-called gave up a little too early. But we got out from that shit, with you-know-what.

It was a really funny night which I’ll never forget the rest of my life.

Even better, I can never forget the time when we were chilling outside of my condo. How I was almost out of breath when he leaned for a kiss. Yeah, and it was so much better than any of those imaginations that I ever had.

So much better.

I tried holding back myself couple of times but at the end, I told to myself. This could be the night that I want to remember or a night that I would regret. If only that would write a book about me, I’m sure that moment would be the time where you’d be touched more than the times you were touched watching The Twilight.

It was historical.

We were paused for few seconds which I felt was the longest pause in my life, and everything happened in a second. He pulled my head while leaning closer and just kiss me. He just fucking kiss me! With no stardust appearing around us, no romantic songs playing, no nothing.

It was just a plain kiss but I was totally gripped!

Let me just give you a slight hint. I felt his lips, his breath, his nose brushing my cheek, his hands holding my head, pushing me closer, the tip of his tongue playing naughtily around my lips and his other hand…

Come on, you got imagination, you continue.

All I can say that everything was just too good to be true, his presence is appreciative and I know that one thing for real, it makes me the happiest person in the world.

Know how exactly am I feeling? I felt like Rapunzel, touching the grass for the first time, swinging around the tree stepping on the clear water or I could be like Cinderella with the glass slippers, and…. Okay.

You know what I’m talking about.

This is too good to be true and sometimes it makes me afraid of having myself to face a probably-fact that this is just a plain acting.

I have few girly advices, telling me not to go deeper with him. I should play some games and see how would he take it. He could even be the kind that would waits and stuffs but you see guys, trust is all that I have.

Trust has been the one that keeping us together through the distance and it has always been the one that has blinded my eyes from checking out those mama-mias (not that I didn’t though). So, why can’t I stay with this trust and greets more happiness to come.

I know I'll be heartbroken, I know Karma will gets me back one day but for the time-being, I decided I should be happy. I don't want to care about those freaking game rules and I want to be just madly out of control. 

Afterall, those pain got to be worth it right?